Have you ever thought you've been trying to be someone that you're not? I'm starting to think that's the case with me. Little reoccurring events are making me think that I've been morphing my true self for a good 3 years. I'm not sure why; Just to fit in with the people i admire, to be accepted by them, to be included? When in reality I'm not included. I feel like i've been completely cast away. When i hang around certain people i just feel like my presence isn't really "wanted," i don't know. Some may say i over-react, or make a big deal out of something minute, but SO many of these little things have happened, that it's all building up and i can't take much more. I think i need to start surrounding myself with people I feel more comfortable with. Forget all of this. I mean, college is when you're supposed to figure all of this out, right? I'm glad i'm figuring this out now, i'm not sure how much more i could've taken. I can't stand feeling uncomfortable around people, No more! Hopefully there will be new beginnings and new friendships in my future.
The fact that my mom is on a cruise and unable to be contacted is killing me. It makes me realize how much i rely on her and how important she truly is to me. I can't imagine not being so close to her. I can't wait for Monday!
Those were the days!
2 comments:
First off: why wasn't I in that picture? Where was I? I thought I was always with those guys. Who knows though. I bounced around so many groups in high school. And as for being wanted, you always are wanted as far as I'm concerned, so I'm here for ya. I just hope for your sake that doesn't mean you are going to morph into me. You don't want to be a nerd.
Yea like Chris said you will always be wanted. Just know that Chris and I are here to talk to if you need to. I am kinda going through the same thing but instead of friends that you feel uncomfortable around, its my family that I wanna get away from. So don't hesitate to talk about something cause the more you let it build up inside the worse off you will be. Trust Me!!
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